I feel like I've been in a sort of creative-motivation paralysis for some months... I want to do so much, and still have no desire to follow through. Is it failure? Is it burnout? Is it this depression? Is it feeling like it won't matter? All of the above. Relearning patience with myself and reminding myself that one day, the moment will come.
I relate to this so deeply, Lindsey. All of the above. And still, somehow that thing on our hearts remains, without judgment, waiting for our return. I'm finding patience a difficult and necessary practice as well. Thank you for sharing ❤️
I have followed your work before the first Passing Through episode in Puerto Rico. One trait that’s inspired me in seeing your work is how you consistently just “let it exist”. Whatever the medium, the time it takes, or content covered you just get it done. Perfection can be such a thief! Thank you for this timely reminder to “set”.
Woooow! Chantel since episode 1?! That means the world. I'm savouring these words, truly. Thank you so so much. May perfection take less and less from us this year and beyond ❤️
I’m terrible at failing. I typically abandon and start over or don’t return. But there are a couple places where I try and try again. Writing is one of them.
I show up to the blank page every week and write imperfectly. Over the years I’ve gotten better. But just this weekend I wrote in my journal, “I want to be masterful at writing personal essays.”
To answer your question, I keep showing up. I keep trying. It’s the only way that works for me.
I don't know if it's a fear of failure or a fear of it working out. But it feels like being frozen sometimes, unable to put everything in line to keep moving forward. But to overcome that, I tell myself "how would you feel if you saw yet another person doing exactly what you know you can do?" and that makes me get myself right on up. My creative journey this year has taught me to just leap, keep working, leap again, and watch as it all comes together without me having to be in full control. Maybe my fear is not being in control, but I stay patient through every part of the process.
Loved every word, yet again, Nneka! “And with our brief and painful and wondrous time on this earth, I’d rather risk short-term embarrassment than life-long regret.” Especially this line. Oooph girl it gave me chills.
All I want from my life is to be able to say, “I had so much fun, I would do that over and over again.” And that line you have us is the heart of it.
In love with this piece. What a great reminder-thank you! I recently learned about the failure bow a few months ago in an artist way multi-week class I took and I appreciated how it made me feel about failure- much more light and less serious about life. Personally, I’ve gone back and forth with calling outcomes “failures” vs. lessons to sometimes being okay with the word “failure” because it gives data and so I then ask myself- “what is this data telling you?” instead of “how could you have failed?” The piece that takes the longest and often requires some TLC is the feeling and emotion attached to failing when sometimes all my ego wants to do is be right/to win/to be perfect before the practice/ to hide and create a narrative of who I am and not, etc. When this happens I remind myself of something my therapist would say when I’d be in my feels - “of course you care Fatima, of course you care.” And some how I’m less triggered and judgmental b/c I hold space for my feelings when perfection is no where in sight 😁
I feel like I've been in a sort of creative-motivation paralysis for some months... I want to do so much, and still have no desire to follow through. Is it failure? Is it burnout? Is it this depression? Is it feeling like it won't matter? All of the above. Relearning patience with myself and reminding myself that one day, the moment will come.
I relate to this so deeply, Lindsey. All of the above. And still, somehow that thing on our hearts remains, without judgment, waiting for our return. I'm finding patience a difficult and necessary practice as well. Thank you for sharing ❤️
I have followed your work before the first Passing Through episode in Puerto Rico. One trait that’s inspired me in seeing your work is how you consistently just “let it exist”. Whatever the medium, the time it takes, or content covered you just get it done. Perfection can be such a thief! Thank you for this timely reminder to “set”.
Woooow! Chantel since episode 1?! That means the world. I'm savouring these words, truly. Thank you so so much. May perfection take less and less from us this year and beyond ❤️
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Done is better than perfect. This.
I try to remind myself every day! Thank you for taking the time, Mariam ❤️
Always incredible ! No matter how you piece your story together 💐 I’m definitely coming out of my creative paralysis!!
Nwabugoooo! Thank you my sista. Bloom the way you always do!
I’m terrible at failing. I typically abandon and start over or don’t return. But there are a couple places where I try and try again. Writing is one of them.
I show up to the blank page every week and write imperfectly. Over the years I’ve gotten better. But just this weekend I wrote in my journal, “I want to be masterful at writing personal essays.”
To answer your question, I keep showing up. I keep trying. It’s the only way that works for me.
I don't know if it's a fear of failure or a fear of it working out. But it feels like being frozen sometimes, unable to put everything in line to keep moving forward. But to overcome that, I tell myself "how would you feel if you saw yet another person doing exactly what you know you can do?" and that makes me get myself right on up. My creative journey this year has taught me to just leap, keep working, leap again, and watch as it all comes together without me having to be in full control. Maybe my fear is not being in control, but I stay patient through every part of the process.
Loved every word, yet again, Nneka! “And with our brief and painful and wondrous time on this earth, I’d rather risk short-term embarrassment than life-long regret.” Especially this line. Oooph girl it gave me chills.
All I want from my life is to be able to say, “I had so much fun, I would do that over and over again.” And that line you have us is the heart of it.
“DESPITE FEAR, BUT WITHOUT HESITATION, I WILL PULL OUT OF LIFE, WHAT IS RIGHTFULLY MINE!”
So help me God.
To overcome you just have to dive in headfirst. The unknown will always be murky. You gotta move and thrash around a bit to see what's there.
In love with this piece. What a great reminder-thank you! I recently learned about the failure bow a few months ago in an artist way multi-week class I took and I appreciated how it made me feel about failure- much more light and less serious about life. Personally, I’ve gone back and forth with calling outcomes “failures” vs. lessons to sometimes being okay with the word “failure” because it gives data and so I then ask myself- “what is this data telling you?” instead of “how could you have failed?” The piece that takes the longest and often requires some TLC is the feeling and emotion attached to failing when sometimes all my ego wants to do is be right/to win/to be perfect before the practice/ to hide and create a narrative of who I am and not, etc. When this happens I remind myself of something my therapist would say when I’d be in my feels - “of course you care Fatima, of course you care.” And some how I’m less triggered and judgmental b/c I hold space for my feelings when perfection is no where in sight 😁
This found me when I needed it and met me where I was at, and for that, I thank you 🫶🏾
Yes!!! 🙌🏿